So much has happened since my last blog. Where do I begin? The restaurant has had a VERY successful opening. This was the day before we opened. I was waiting on a courier to deliver check presenters... books, if you will, for servers to hold their "stuff " in.
I will say, I have made some mistakes here in St Louis that I never thought I would make again. I have had several conversations with God about who I am and where should I be. Even today I have struggled with it... but I am getting ahead of myself.
It is funny a year ago, I would have said.. my life was in order and my restaurant was spiraling our of control. Today, the restaurant is great and for the last few months my life has just been spinning. This is due to my own continued "rocking of the boat." I am continuously trying to help God. I know he wants this for me... so I am going to help Him. I have put so many things in out there and let the chips fall where they may.... knowing that they could turn into a huge disaster... and here I sit "rocking that boat." Today, I have spent most of the day in complete silence. I have realized from reading my twitter page.... that there are thousands of people with the same "rocking the boat" mentality as me... it is called FEAR. Fear of if I am ever going to be enough... Enough..... enough for who? Who am I living this life for... this 30 seconds compared to eternity with God? This is a mere blip on the radar screen. I have got to start living! Who cares that I am not enough for this guy or that guy... I am enough for the Big Guy!!! Sounds cheesy... but I'm livin' for the first time in a long time.... what are you doin?
Speaking of living...my precious niece just keeps getting more adorable.... she told me last Saturday, "Aunt Robin, I really think you need to move back here I miss you." This as we were going up and down the escalator at Nordstrom's for the fifth time. We would jump on and jump off.... I could hear the gasps coming from everyone around us. We did not care... she is a tough little girl. We then went to try on shoes. I had to get work shoes as mine are slowly falling apart...I tried on Dansko clogs.... she said, "those are cute." I must teach her to never say that again. It has been great living so close to KC. I can drive there in 3 hours or take the train in 5 hours.
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